I hold my fantasy
Do you find it fun to feed it?
Pretend not to see you
As my Messiah in a gold skin

I lay here in your arms
Is this my idea or you’re whispering?
Saying what I want to hear
I should’ve known you were never here for free

I’ll be your hostage, take what you want to
Before I’m the last you’ll see
When you’re gone, I’ll know without you I can’t take
You know I can’t take

Yet I’ll make you mine
Be mine
I’m yours, so be mine
The way you made me yours

(You know they wouldn’t do the same for you
They’re expecting you to always be available
Did they even ask about you?
Yeah, I thought so)

No matter what I do / no matter what you do
We both know you’ll crawl back to me / We both know I’ll crawl back to you
Even so, you’re still unsure / Even so, I’m still unsure
If you regret the deal we made then / If I regret the deal we made then

I see you’re frustrated / I’ve been so frustrated
How could you make me need you truly? / How do I make you need me truly?
I see it starts to turn you on / How I put you in this cage I’ve been
When I bleed and you’re who hurt me / Since you have locked me?

How much of my mind’s mine? / How much of your mind’s mine?
Are my acts my own or how you want them? / Are your acts your own or how I want them?
Distorting what I see / Distorting what you see
Whispering how I deserve better than this / Whispering how you deserve better than this

I see it every time
How much you enjoy the pain in my eyes
You don’t even try to hide
Stab my chest while you say you’ve always loved me / stab me if it makes you feel better than me

I’ll be your hostage, take what you want to
Before I’m the last you’ll see
When you’re gone, I’ll know without you I can’t take / When I’m gone, you’ll know without me you can’t take
You know I can’t take / you know you can’t take

Yet I’ll make you mine / you’ve always been mine
Be mine / just mine
I’m yours, so be mine / can’t you see you’re mine?
The way you made me yours / you wish I was yours too

Why can’t I stop doing this?
I wasn’t supposed to feel like this
I try too hard to get rid of it but
You never make it easy

You blank my mind inside out
You say you can’t lie yet you know I doubt
Why can’t you help me revert?
Stop looking at me like I broke your fucking heart apart

To destroy is to become the target
I recognize this bright in your eyes
To the mirror, wonder how could I not see?
How could I dismiss?

I’ve trapped myself in
Like you
You’ll never be mine
The way you made me yours

You’ll never be mine